Have you ever seen a crying toddler. You know the ones that have obviously missed their nap and now is so uncontrollable that all you can do is cringe and feel really bad for that kid's mom. Here's a sample pic:
This is how I feel on the inside. I feel like I have missed a nap and now I want to fall on the floor, kick, scream and cry. Almost every day for about a month now I have jolted up at 5:45 for no good reason. My alarm doesn't go off until 6. I have no idea why as I don't need to wake up until 7. I don't know if this is a PG sign or if that lacks of sleep is catching up with me. All I know is I'm sleepy, I'm at work and I can't take a nap for 3 and a half more hours.
Test update: I have no clue if I'm PG or not. I promised DH I wouldn't test until Monday. I hate when I make promises that I really shouldn't make. He says I have no patience for waiting especially if it's a surprise for me. He's right. I don't like waiting. Ps. Don't ever tell me secret and then tell me don't tell. I will implode and probably tell your secret to a minimum of 10 people within the 10 minutes after you tell me not to tell.
I am doing my best to get through this work week. It has been a trying one. I have a coworker, whom I shall call Mr. Grumpy Pants. He doesn't like it when others around him make too much noise yet you can hear his phone conversations throughout the entire office. Plus, he is very rude and condescending to our customers. I spend a good deal of my day trying to stay calm and not tell him he's a hypocrite.
I say all that to say there is a 'war' in the office today over the air conditioner. Mr. Grumpy Pants is too hot and I want to guess his porridge is too cold. He keeps making a big stink about it. Emails upon emails have gone out regarding this. Meanwhile, I'm in my office with a fluffy sweater and a space heater. If I don't have the heater on my nose get's red and my hands become icicles. When I walked in this morning he told me not to turn on my heater today as they were gonna check the temperatures of the office to see why his area is too hot and they think that personal heaters are bring up the temperature. First, let's remind all he's my COWORKER not my boss.
I'm feeling all kinds of defiant and crabby today (even though it seems like such a petty thing to fuss about). SOOOO, the heaters running.
On a different hormonal front. I'm 7dp5dt and have yet to POAS. I'm still scared and terrified that the FET wasn't successful. I am going to the bathroom more but haven't seen any signs of implantation bleeding. The 'girls' were sore but not as much anymore. AF is due today but with the Estradiol patch and pills I'm on I'm thinking that may make AF not show up. Right?
Well that's all I got for today. Sorry it's been such a no-good-post kinda week.
